Thursday, May 15, 2014

The Man Who Planted Trees | 나무를 심은 사람

I did attend one of Asia's biggest events for the tech and entrepreneurship ecosystem, beLAUNCH. I had been hoping to do that since 2012, I made it finally. Seeing people - young entrepreneurs and investors in Silicon Valley ignited my interest in starting ventures. I was so astonished. Many enthusiastic people were at one place, plus, the event itself was so nicely organized by a small media startup. 
I found myself enjoying mixing with different backgrounds and nationalities in an atmosphere of freedom. More than half of the people attended the conference including me put on jeans. And people of all ages, from twenty somethings to septuagenarians, had frank exchanges of opinions. Even there were some parents with children! How lucky the kids are! I was reminded of some of political diplomacy meetings in formal atmospheres I attended last year. I almost stopped breathing. I think my being a government official does not seem right to me somehow, sure, they will not have a plan to hire me though. Steve Jobs said, "It's more fun to be a pirate than to join the Navy." I agree with him. Although I have found difficulty with finding out who is who at sea!

One of speakers Eric Kim, who founded Goodwater Capital, gave a nice speech for simple-minded engineers. The smart guy graduated from Yale and Stanford encouraged people to find their inner calling and to change the world by their talents. After lunch, I bumped into him, so I said to him, "Thank you for your inspiring speech! You looked like a pastor and we all seemed to attend a church retreat." Then, he giggled. Except Eric, I could see other respectable Korean American entrepreneurs and venture capitalists in the South Bay.

It might be very weird though, I have felt that God seems to have some plans that people in the area mean for me. After I finished my study at Seoul National University, I started to work at Hanssem on the 2nd March of 2002. At the same year, a former board member of Oracle and her staff joined the company for starting a sort of venture within the company. In obedience of the company founder's order, I happened to work under the direction of the newly appointed vice-president at the ad-hoc department. The vice-president was a Korean American, who lived in Irvine, California. For the reason, before I left Seoul for Ithaca, I could learn entrepreneur spirits while working with them and meeting with their friends from California. I also had chances to visit her place in Irvine and some of symbolic places in Silicon Valley: the headquarter of Oracle, Stanford University, and other places. My association with the team led me to become a kind of an IT geek (who cannot do code, ha!).

I respect entrepreneurs, and appreciate their courage, leadership, creativity, and achievements. I am curious why God has trained me under a thorough founder of a company in Korea, and opened my eyes to the new revolution and made me keep watching the movements through encountering professionals from leading companies in Silicon Valley. There might be some reasons since God always has plans to take actions. Sometimes I just want to stay in a safe place, however, it seems like everything and everywhere is uncertain on earth. Moreover I see often myself having a kind of a pirate's spirit! Someday I hope to join the creative ecosystem as an entrepreneur or an investor that can make a real change.

One of my favorite quotes occurs to my mind.
“Safe?” said Mr. Beaver; “Don't you hear what Mrs. Beaver tells you? Who said anything about safe? 'Course he isn't safe. But he's good. He's the King, I tell you." - C.S. Lewis, The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe -

Monday, March 24, 2014

Recomposed Spring

I feel like that Antonio Vivaldi's "Spring" recomposed by Max Richter and Ubi Caritas presented/played by Ola Gjeilo express something that all creatures' earnest longing to be flourishing and for God's love and grace. If I say it sounds like a prelude to heaven, is it too exaggerated? Well, all of a sudden, I fell in love with the two songs! Here is Ubi Caritas' lyrics.
Where charity and love are, God is there. Christ's love has gathered us into one. Let us rejoice and be pleased in Him. Let us fear, and let us love the living God. And may we love each other with a sincere heart.
Where charity and love are, God is there. As we are gathered into one body. Beware, lest we be divided in mind. Let evil impulses stop, let controversy cease. And may Christ our God be in our midst. 
Where charity and love are, God is there. And may we with the saints also. See Thy face in glory, O Christ our God: The joy that is immense and good. Unto the ages through infinite ages. Amen.

Wednesday, December 04, 2013

Dreams, Ashes of Time

Yesterday it was a very stressful day. After work, I went to a bustling district, Myeongdong, kept walking, and then watched a movie at 09:40PM. My choice was “Chungking Express (重慶森林),” the 1994 film written and directed by Wong Kar-Wai (王家衛). It is about two love-struck cops in Hong Kong before its return to China. I started to go to movie alone when I get stressed. It has been one of my new hobbies. I realized that recently I have watched so many movies than before.. sigh.

I saw the movie when I was a college student with friends almost 15 years ago. I wanted to see it again. U
pcoming business trip to Hong Kong is one of reasons that I made the impulsive decision, however, unexpectedly the film made me look back on my 20’s and look at myself in my 30’s, rather than look forward to the business trip there.

In my early 20’s, I could not perceive changes in other people’s subtle emotions because I was not that considerate of people's feelings. That is, I did not know anything about people, and life. Yesterday I could see the subtle changes of characters’ emotions in this colorful movie. Now I seemed to start to see that the relationship between a man and a woman, let’s say ‘love, the most exquisite art!' Alas, I have been that dull by now.

Any organic product has the expiration date, even relationships between people do have. Can the life of relationships be prolonged by 100, or 1,000, or 10,000 years? There is someone who likes apple, but he can became a person who dislikes apple. Who can blame him for that? Then, what means that we long for? Can we trust in us, our desires? Probably truth seems that people are repeatedly do loving and hating, hurting and being wounded, forgetting and recalling, mistaking and regretting, ignoring and respecting, and finishing and restarting.

On the one hand, I was reminded of my younger days, and one of my close friends, Haewon who watched the movie with me. She passed away on bone tumors in her beautiful late 20’s. Suddenly I felt downhearted. The friend resembled Faye Wong, a leading actress in Chungking Express, her character as well as her body shape. I recalled the dead friend’s boyfriend. And I was wondering whether he knows that she, that he once loved, does not exist on earth.
Life is full of unexpected happenings and accidents. I see that a few things I dreamed and planned in my 20’s came true. It seemed terrible, but it would not be tragedies, but blessings. It could be one of reasons for me to give thanks to God. He has changed my foolish desires and plans and keep showing something noble and unimaginable beyond my intelligence and experiences.

This month, I will go on a business trip to Hong Kong. 4 years has elapsed since I visited the city for the first time. What would I feel and see this time? A dreamy song in the movie and the glimmering of Hong Kong are haunting me. I like Wong Kar-Wai's movies, just reserved his another movie, “Ashes of Time (東邪西毒)” ticket online. Today can be my last day to live or love, who knows? The unknown, the mysterious tension in life is not that bad at all. I am trying not to postpone something important and something I like to do. It would be one of sojourners’ must-have mental attitudes. Enjoy this moment, and give thanks!

Saturday, November 09, 2013

L'Art de La Simplicite

One more household item has been added to my property list. Yesterday a Cuckoo pressure rice cooker was delivered. It costs 214,200 Korean won, except a MacBook Air, an iPad, and a Leica camera, it is the most expensive good at my house. Believe it or not, although I enjoy cooking and eating very much, I had lived without a rice cooker since I returned to Korea! The small cooker I used in the States is the 110 volt system, so I could not use here. For nearly three years, I was debating whether I should buy a new one or not.

Recently I was hospitalized so sudden, finally I concluded with buying a new rice cooker for my physical health. Yesterday evening, I cooked rice with mixed grains at the expensive cooker like as if I carried out a kind of an important ritual. Gladly it worked well. I was satisfied with the tasty rice.

I long to live freely, so I have a kind of an obsession that I should live in a simple way, not have too many goods. In 2010, my oldest sister and her daughter gave their assets to poor me, who just came back with nothing from the States. My current single bed is what my first niece used, and my white fabric couch is what my brother-in-law used before his marriage. I only purchased a desk from my company, Hanssem, and lighting and chairs from Hanssem's competitor, IKEA. 

A few days ago, when I found a book entitled 'L'Art de La Simplicite' written by Dominique Loreau, and was very impressed by her insights. She nicely mentions what I have thought but I cannot explain well. It is about the life of simplicity, that is the concept of possession: clothes, space, etc. 

It is not easy for me not to buy a lot of household items since I am a kind of an aesthetic person! In the industrial societies, I feel like people are always forced to buy and possess things, but if people fill their lives with unnecessary stuff, they might sink because of the weight of the garbage. Well, our only one earth is already confronting the challenge. Also I keep thinking that I would happen to live in a few other places in my entire life. So I have wanted to be ready to leave for anywhere at any time.

A difficult assignment remains. I am a well-known professional amateur librarian. I do like purchasing books. Here is a problem. Since Amazon started to provide e-book service, I have been glad to have books easily in Korea though, I started to debate whether I should have paper books or digital books. When I think about moving without a strong spouse, digital books would be the best choice for me. I can appreciate the convenience of carrying a lot of digital books, however, I like rather turning over the leaves of a book than touching the screen of iPad or Kindle. I feel like I am an oldie. I might need to adopt a new method in digital information societies that helps people to possess less and share more.

Thursday, October 17, 2013

My Favorite Movies

Chariots of Fire (1981) by Hugh Hudson
Eric: "If you commit yourself to the love of Christ, then that is how you run a straight race.. I believe God made me for a purpose, but he also made me fast. And when I run I feel His pleasure."
The Mission (1986) by Roland Joffé
Gabriel: "We are not the members of a democracy, Father. We are the members of an order."
Cinema Paradiso (1988) by Giuseppe Tornatore
Alfredo: "Whatever you end up doing, love it. The way you loved the projection booth when you were a little squirt.. Toto. Life isn't like in the movies. Life is much harder."
The Shawshank Redemption (1994) by Frank Darabont
Red: "Some things are best left unsaid. I'd like to think they were singing about something so beautiful, it can't be expressed in words, and makes your heart ache because of it. I tell you, those voices soared higher and farther than anybody in a gray place dares to dream. It was like some beautiful bird flapped into our drab little cage and made those walls dissolve away, and for the briefest of moments, every last man in Shawshank felt free."
Chungking Express (重庆森林, 1994) by Wong Kar-Wai
Cop663: Would you let a person on board with a boarding pass like this? It's dated today, but it got blurred in the rain. I don't know where it's taking me. Do you? Faye: No idea, but I'll give you another. Cop663: Great. Faye: Where do you want to go? Cop663: Wherever you want to take me.
La Vita è Bella (1997) by Roberto Benigni
Guido: "I'd have to be crazy to tell you. I'd even make love to you now right here for the rest of my life."
Christmas in August (1998) by Jin-Ho Hur
Jungwon: "I always knew that feelings of love would fade - just like old photographs. But for you, you will always remain in my heart, as you are in my last moment. Thank you, and goodbye."
Joint Security Area (2000) by Chan-Wook Park

L'auberge Espagnole (2002) by Cédric Klapisch
Xavier: "When you first arrive in a new city, nothing makes sense. Everythings unknown, virgin. After you've lived here, walked these streets, you'll know them inside out. You'll know these people. Once you've lived here, crossed this street 10, 20, 1000 times... it'll belong to you because you've lived there."
Reconstruction (2003) by Christoffer Boe
"If he steps back, if he doubts about the love, she will disappear."
Der Fischer und seine Frau (2005) by Doris Dörrie

Still Life (三峡好人, 2006) by Zhangke Jia


Ratatouille (2007) by Brad Bird, Jan Pinkava

Letters to Father Jacob (Postia pappi Jaakobille, 2009) by Klaus Härö

Sound of Noise (2010) by Ola Simonsson, Johannes Stjärne Nilsson

The Tree of Life (2011) by Terrence Malick
Mrs. O'Brien: "The only way to be happy is to love. Unless you love, your life will flash by.. Help each other. Love everyone, every leaf, every ray of light. Forgive."
Life of Pie (2012) by Ang Lee
Adult Pi Patel: "I wept like a child. Not because I was overwhelmed at having survived, although I was. I was weeping because Richard Parker left me so unceremoniously. It broke my heart. You know my father was right. Richard Parker never saw me as his friend. After all we had been through he didn't even look back. But I have to believe there was more in his eyes than my own reflection staring back at me. I know it, I felt it. Even if I can't prove it. You know, I left so much behind: my family, the zoo, India, Anandi. I suppose in the end, the whole of life becomes an act of letting go. But what always hurts the most is not taking a moment to say goodbye. I was never able to thank my father for all I learned from him. To tell him, without his lessons I would never have survived. I know Richard Parker is a tiger but I wish I had said, "It's over. We survived. Thank you for saving my life. I love you, Richard Parker. You'll always be with me. May God be with you." 
Adult Pi Patel: Faith is a house with many rooms. 
Writer: But no room for doubt? 
Adult Pi Patel: Oh plenty, on every floor. Doubt is useful, it keeps faith a living thing. After all, you cannot know the strength of your faith until it is tested.
The Dandelions (Du Vent dans mes Mollets, 2012) by Carine Tardieu

A Late Quartet (2012) by Yaron Zilberman
Peter Mitchell: "Time present and time past are both perhaps present in time future, and time future contained in time past. If all time is eternally present, all time is unredeemable. Or say that the end precedes the beginning, and the end and the beginning were always there before the beginning and after the end. And all is always now."
My Love, Don't Cross That River (2013) by Jin Mo-Young

Gravity (2013) by Alfonso Cuarón

Thursday, October 03, 2013

Italy Refreshed Me

During this year's long Chusok holiday, finally I could have some restful times in Assisi, Italy. Last year, I had no chance to go on vacation because of work, so I had waited for this trip. In the beginning of the trip, I didn't know why I got lost several times from Rome. I was quite distracted by many complicated thoughts and unhappy feelings. However, in the middle of my journey, I could find my peace of mind through meeting a gracious lady at a bus stop in Assisi. After then, small changes occurred to me.

At the bus stop, I waited for a bus, but the bus did not turn up, so I and someone started to chat. It turned out that she is a spiritual coach who leads a special retreat for pastors, priests, and seminary students every year in Assisi. Her name is Dr. Benefiel, Margaret. At the morning, she was waiting for a bus to leave for Rome, and eventually for Boston! After she got to know that once I lived in Boston, we both were very excited to talk about a lot of things including city of Boston, politics inside churches, Christian conferences: Urbana and InterVarsity, etc. At our parting, she kindly gave me her book 'The Soul of a Leader' and said to me to pray for me. The book with author's signature and the short but intensive conversation with her encouraged me a lot. I was grateful to God for giving the unexpected encounter to me, such an inattentive one.

I could have other interesting meetings during the journey. Except one person, all asked me about North Korea after they learned that I came from South Korea. I might be stood out in the crowd since there were few Asians in Assisi. I thought that the experience was abnormal. I have not known that before, more Europeans that I expected seem interested in how North Korea will turn out. They threw so difficult questions at me, "How is North Korea doing?" or "What do you think about North Korea's future?" like that! One of them is a young Rumanian, he talked about his dead father in the communist regime, who liked communism, and his mother, who prefers capitalism in a capitalist country, Italy. I had never expected these kinds of conversations during my vacation in a secluded village in the mountains, Assisi.

A night classic concert at Basilica di San Francesco, and every some time gentle ring of various churches bells, and a Friday evening wedding ceremony, and genuine Italian cannoli and cappuccino and Umbrian pizza and pasta.. everything were novel pleasures I cannot forget. Plus, while wandering several days, I got to know every inch of the city. I fell in love with this small town. Also, I could recall I have a lot to do for repaying grace given to me through my entire life journey. Especially Dr. Benefiel's book and the unexpected casual meetings stimulated some of my passions. It is a kind of creating a dynamic platform for people interested in NK, and professionals from each field who want to be connected with others for developing NK. I decided to give shape to the idea concretely in the near future. I seem to still have a long way to go! Here are some pictures of my Italy trip. Enjoy! https://goo.gl/photos/9YTfVdrfVFrVZxkcA

Friday, July 27, 2012

Fruit, the Intimate Relationship Itself

I do not work a lot nowadays, leave work at 6PM. At the company, I just keep reading various books as a pretext for finding new ideas. Twice a week, I talk with Hanssem Founder and Chairman Chang Gul Cho quite comfortably. Sometimes I am confused if I enroll on some graduate courses or not. At some point, even I started feeling sorry to other colleagues as I have a decent salary without hard work, but also I am in peace, honestly, I enjoy this unexpected serene moment.

I do not know what Mr. Cho exactly hopes to get with my work, but I guess he does not seem to expect a great outcome from my research in the forseeable future. This is very strange. I am not his daughter (he already has three daughters) but he just seems to enjoy talking with me, and does not expect anything. Why?

Recently I hired a junior staff with a doctoral degree. Due to the aspect of our work, a continuous interchange of ideas has been needed. In spite of our hard work, we do not seem to take our course well, thus far, it has been fine with me. A few days ago, I realized I enjoyed the intellectual communication itself, soon after, I also got to understand Mr. Cho’s mind. A wonderful outcome is great! But even if there is no fruit, it is fine, if we walked together to achieve a same goal. The process, in other words, the intimate relationship itself is meaningful and it could be a kind of fruit.

As usual, I think of God. When I meet obstacles, sometimes I run to God, but often I stay alone in a dusty cave as I do not want to talk with Him. I am a silly billy. My sinful ego rejects God strongly, tries to accomplish some difficult tasks by myself, and want to boast of my own ability even if there is nothing to say 'my own.' I often delude myself that God will be proud of me, who did a lot of good deeds. Does He really need something done well by me? Maybe.. maybe not. I think that He loves traveling holding my hand. If I can make something great in the intimate relationship with Him, it could be true His pride and joy. Without Him, however, nothing is great, nothing.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Vanishment

This Monday morning when I went to my company, I bumped into the Chairman looking around our institution at a corridor. As I had a meeting appointment with him at 7:30AM, I put my bag at my place in haste, and went up to his office with several documents. However, I felt something strange. I saw him looking out the window although the meeting time passed. During the meeting with him, his face and voice showed solemn determination.

I wondered what was wrong with him or his daughter. One of his daughters working at this institution recently married, but last Thursday, suddenly she was absent from the office and has been absent since that time. Then this Monday she just gave a colleague a brief notice of a long-term absence. Last Thursday, I recalled that actually the Chairman came to his office early in the morning, but went out of the office right away after he got a message. Like as his daughter, I could not see him until this Monday.

Today I found something at his office while discussing with him, it was a picture of his only one son. It seemed to be the portrait of the deceased.. I was horrified to think the unidentified fact. I saw his son a month ago at his youngest sister's marriage, but what happened to him? And I got to know that my guess was not wrong according to a reliable source. Obviously all the family's lips are all strictly sealed, even his secretary has not said to people anything, the only one son seemed to commit suicide.

It's a very gloomy and long day. After I learned about the sad news, I began to feel sick, could not work, and started wondering how the Chairman could work as usual. He must be a very strong person, that fact makes me sad and sick. It would really break his heart to see his son's death this way. I prayed for him and his family. And again I got serious. What is life? what is the meaning of life? Men vanish without trace after all. Today I crave eternity, the truth, God.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

[Article] An Unlikely Marriage - The Hard-line Communist State and Wealthy Christian Capitalists

Seoul, South Korea — Of all the fantastic tales to come out of North Korea — the country’s leader is injected with the blood of virgin girls, he made 11 holes-in-one during his very first round of golf, each grain of rice he eats is inspected by hand for imperfections, his youngest son and would-be successor has had cosmetic surgery to make him resemble his grandfather — not one of these seems as improbable as the event that took place on Monday, when a science university founded by American evangelical scholars began its first day of classes in Pyongyang, the capital of the secretive Communist state.

North Korea, the nuclear-armed “hermit kingdom,” is so poor that there is almost no supply of concrete, bricks or window glass. People suffer shortages of rice, gasoline and even underwear. The Internet barely exists, not to mention computers, and the economy is so moribund that most factories barely function for lack of raw materials and electricity.

In spite of all this, classes in technical English started Monday at the Pyongyang University of Science and Technology. A fuller curriculum in information technology, business management and agriculture is supposed to get under way in March.

“It’s amazing, and kind of a miracle,” said Park Chan-mo, one of the founders of the school, which was largely financed by contributions from evangelical Christian groups in the United States and South Korea. “Many people were skeptical, but we’re all Christians. We had faith.”

The driving force behind the school was Kim Chin-kyung, an American born in Seoul who founded a university in China in 1992. He made periodic trips from China into North Korea and in 1998 was arrested at his hotel in the capital and thrown into prison, accused of being an agent for the C.I.A. The relentless interrogations went on for six weeks and almost broke him. “I was ready to die,” he said in a 2001 interview, even writing out a will and bequeathing his organs for transplants and medical study in Pyongyang. He was finally released, he said, after convincing the authorities that “I was not the kind of person who would spy on them.”

In November 2000, a man appeared in his university office in China — oddly, the same man who had ordered his arrest for espionage in Pyongyang in 1998. But this time he had a proposal from the North Korean government: could he duplicate his Chinese technical university in Pyongyang?

“Doing business with North Korea is not for the faint of heart,” Mr. Kim said on the school’s Web site, “but the effort is ennobling and necessary.”

The first group of 160 undergraduate and master’s students has been chosen by the North Korean government, selected from its top colleges and from the political and military elite. Their tuition, room, board and books are all free, financed by foreign donors and individual sponsors. The plans call for an eventual student body of 2,600 and a faculty of 250, with classes in public health, architecture, engineering and construction.

Sixteen professors from the United States and Europe arrived in Pyongyang over the weekend. For now, no South Korean professors are allowed because of recent political tensions between the Koreas. It seems an unlikely marriage — the hard-line Communist state and wealthy Christian capitalists — and it remains to be seen how well the match has been made.

North Korea, while reluctant to expose its citizens to the outside world, has been seeking foreign investment for its decrepit educational system. For their part, the evangelicals, who have antagonized the North by encouraging defections and assisting refugees after they cross over, are seeking a foothold inside the churchless state.

North Korea has made a similar bargain before. The Unification Church of the Rev. Sun Myung Moon, not only a Christian but staunchly anti-Communist, operates a car factory in Pyongyang, for instance. But the church is allowed to make only cars, not Christians or capitalist converts.

There is no campus chapel at the new university, Dr. Park said, and there is not one in the plans. But neither, for now, are there any official portraits of the North Korean leader,Kim Jong-il, or his father, the late Kim Il-sung, which hang in every school and public building in the North.

The $35 million, 240-acre campus includes a faculty guesthouse and world-class dormitories and classrooms, all of which are said to have running water, power and heat. The school has its own backup generators, but with so little diesel and gasoline available in the North, fuel has to be trucked in from neighboring China.

Classes will be taught in English, and Internet access has been promised to all students. The campus has sirens that go off before rolling electrical blackouts, so work on computers can be saved. “The Internet will be censored, and we can’t imagine that it won’t be,” said Dr. Park, who has been involved in educational exchanges with the North since 2000. “Even in South Korea things are blocked. I’m sure North Korea has been looking at my e-mails. I keep them businesslike.”

Dr. Park, the former president of the prestigious Pohang University of Science and Technology in South Korea, said the university project could not have been completed without the approval of the United States government. Officials at the school, eager not to run afoul of international sanctions in place against the North, have even sent its curriculum to the State Department for vetting.

One request from Washington was that the name of the biotechnology course be changed for fear that it might be seen as useful in developing biological weapons, Dr. Park said. So the course title was changed to “Agriculture and Life Sciences.”

The United States government also was also “very sensitive,” Dr. Park said, about young North Korean scientists learning skills that could be used by the military or in developing nuclear weapons. “We can’t be fooled into teaching them those kinds of things.”

Several conservative lawmakers from South Korea called for Seoul, which gave $1 million to the school in 2006, to cut off all support. One legislator, Yoon Sang-hyun, was angered that the North insisted that future economics classes include lessons about juche, or Kim Il-sung’s founding philosophy of self-reliance.

Some critics also have suggested that there must have been heavy payoffs made to the North Korean government to move the project along, but Mr. Kim insisted that no deals had been made. “Every brick we used, every bit of steel, every bit of equipment, we brought in from China,” Mr. Kim, who was in Pyongyang for the opening, said in an interview in Fortune last year. “I have never brought any cash into North Korea.”

“I have unlimited credit at the Bank of Heaven,” he added.

This article is written by Mark McDonald
Published: October 25, 2010 @New York Times
Choe Sang-hun contributed reporting from Palo Alto, California.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Farmer Having Entrepreneurship

Sometimes I think about becoming a farmer who has an enterprise. I have not decided main crops and products yet, but the items I will choose might be high value crops and products from the crops.

Today I read an interesting article about Olivier Baussan, the founder of L'Occitane. My dream seems to take encouragement from the French guy. I like the reason why he started the business. He wanted to revive local economy through agriculture while maintaining the unique French tradition. At his age of 23, he started L'Occitane in Provence, his hometown. Eventually he made it successfully as we see its shops all over the world. Even he has passed down the manufacturing techniques to people in developing countries. 

Olivier Baussan has been doing sustainable development projects nicely through the enterprise. The frugal man, who still wears a Swatch watch and a worn-out jacket, is respectful. I want to behave as he does. I want to become a person who can create something, and produce values with and for others, but not just for money itself. So many thoughts are whirling around in my mind. The time will come. 

Monday, April 18, 2011

He is the Storyteller

All of a sudden, I found my senior from school and church appeared on a special TV documentary film. I had been unable to keep in touch with him for a long time, so it was a shock. I seldom watch TV but at the day I did and then saw him. I was scared a bit as I felt like God intended to let me know what he was doing as he was one of major influences in my life. 

He is working in Afghanistan as a kind of an important constitution leader. I could see him walking towards the special calling God gave him. He seems to learn there how to handle complicated situations heavily militarized and how to coordinate a number of inter-government organizations and aid organizations in chaotic. He is there for Afghanistan people now but also for our N & S Korean people in days to come. Nobody knows when the unification comes true and how it looks like though, I am guessing we may learn priceless lessons from the Afghanistan's experiences.

Recently UN officials were attacked by Afghans and their dead bodies were delivered in Kabul. Returned evil for good. It's the world where we live. I felt hopeless one day, I asked Him desperately what hopes I have to have. Then I had a sudden flash of Psalms, the chapter 84. (or God answered to my stupid question.) 
"How blessed all those in whom you, whose lives become roads you travel.. God-traveled, these roads curve up the mountain, and at the last turn-Zion! God in full view! O God of Jacob, open your ears I'm praying. Look at our shields, glistening in the sun, our faces, shining with your gracious anointing. One day spent in your house, this beautiful place of worship, beats thousands spent on Greek island beaches. I'd rather scrub floors in the house of my God than be honored as a guest in the palace of sin. All sunshine and sovereign is God, generous in gifts and glory."
I am thankful to God for reminding me of God's unceasing work, and what I have to hope in. Sometimes I am afraid of being different from others, but then I can never live out a true life drawn by the creative Storyteller. I think I need to listen to the only one Master more than before.

Friday, January 07, 2011

Blooming vs. Fading

What a surprise! For the first time, I got an email from my first niece, Hyewon. It was good news from her. Before Christmas, I visited her family in Jupiter, Florida in the States. We had some nice times (mostly chatting) usually on her bed but we also did her social project, which was about introducing Pennsylvania State to her classmates next year. Of course, I gave her some insights. Her message was to let me know how the presentation, which was our collaboration, went well in her class. This week she got a mysterious score on it. 104/100! Additional 4 point is a bonus, she said. She wanted to boast of her good performance, so emailed me. The simple message made me so happy. Maybe it is because I don't have my children yet? My niece, Hyewon is blooming although I am going in the opposite direction, fading, that is aging. Well, looking forward to building a nice friendship with the smart lady and having my children some days. Wish her and me good luck!

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

Teaching of Rev. R.A.Torrey III at Jesus Abbey

“모든 성도와 함께 여러분이 그리스도의 사랑이 너비와 길이와 높이와 깊이가 어떠한지를 깨달을 수 있게 되기를 원한다”(에베소서 3:18).

대천덕 신부는 바울이 에베소 성도들을 위하여 기도했던 그리스도의 사랑에 대한 4차원의 사랑을 깊게 추구하였다. 즉 더 넓고 깊게 사람들을 사랑하기 위하여 예수님을 더 높고 깊게 사랑하길 소원하며 기도와 사랑의 코이노니아 실험실인 예수원을 세워 실천적인 영성의 삶을 살면서 가르쳤다.

가문의 전통과 재정 문제에서 배우는 영성 대천덕 신부(Reuben Archer Torrey III)의 가족이 엄격하게 지키는 전통 중의 하나는 각 사람은 개인적으로 하나님의 자녀로 거듭나야 하며, 하나님의 가족이 되는 것과 개개인의 가족 내력은 별개라는 것이다. 또한 모든 자녀들이 고등학교를 졸업하면 1년 동안 대학을 진학하지 않고 삶의 현장 속에서 살도록 한다는 것이다. 고등학교를 졸업하여 이제 성인이 되었으니 각자 자신의 관심과 전공과 연결되는 삶의 자리에서 ‘사람들의 소리’를 직접 듣기 위하여 음식점, 농장, 어장, 사무실, 공장 등에서 일한 후에 대학에 진학한다는 것이다. 우리는 어떤가? 명문 대학에 자녀들을 입학시키려고 얼마나 힘쓰는가. 좋은 대학은 누구를 위하여 또한 무엇을 위해 필요한 것인가?


대천덕 신부는 “믿음의 주요 도 온전케 하시는 이(the pioneer and perfecter of our faith)인 예수를 바라보자“(히 12:2)는 구절과 “그뿐 아니라 하나님을 대적하여 말하기를 하나님이 광야에서 능히 식탁을 준비하시랴”(시편 78:19)는 말씀을 붙잡고 “책만 가지고 신학을 가르치지 않고” 더 나은 방법을 찾아, ‘그리스도인의 삶에 있는 세 가지 실험실’(The Three Laboratories of the Christian Life)을 세우기 위해 예수원을 세워 개척자의 길을 갔다. 그는 교회가 한 번도 개척되지 않은 시골 마을에 들어가 바닥부터 시작하였다. 그는 필요한 사람들과 자신이 도울 수 있는 사람들을 하나님께서 보내실 것을 믿고 출발하였다. 그는 같은 생각을 가진 사람들과 함께 살면서 노동과 물질과 기도를 나누면서 하나님을 위해 불을 일으켰다. 그러나 우리는 선교와 사역 속에서 안정과 기득권을 유지하려는 노력은 하지만 “배에서 나오라”(마 14:29)는 예수님의 명령에 순종하여 개척과 과감한 실험을 못하고 방황하는 형편은 아닌가?'

R. A. Torrey 선조들은 유럽을 떠나 미국으로 건너와 한 곳에 정착하지 않고 여러 곳에 살면서 수중에 돈이 떨어질 때가 많았다. 그때마다 빚을 얻거나 하나님이 허락하지 않은 일을 하거나 후원금을 요청할 수 있었지만 항상 하나님이 일용할 양식을 주시도록 맡기며 살았다. 4대에 걸친 R. A. Torrey의 간증은 “의인이 버림을 당하거나 그 자손이 걸식함을 보지 못하였다”(시편 37:25)는 것이었다. 사회적인 안정과 지위를 얻기보다 가정을 통하여 하나님의 뜻이 이루어지길 원하며 ‘가난의 서약’을 하고 살았다. 언젠가 예수원의 운영자금이 바닥났을 때에 대천덕 신부는 서울의 미 8군 휴양소에 열리는 컨퍼런스에 참석한 적이 있었다. 그러나 대천덕 신부는 컨퍼런스 중에 사람들에게 예수원의 필요에 대해 한마디도 하지 않았다. 그러나 얼마 후에 한 미군이 대천덕 신부에게 한국 돈을 한 뭉치 주었지만, 한국 여성이 한 지역에서 선교 프로젝트를 설명하면서 경제적 지원이 없으면 중단 할 수밖에 없다고 하자 전날 받은 돈을 전부 그 사람의 가방에 넣어 주었다. 그런데 컨퍼런스 마지막 날 한국 여성이 다가와 자신의 삶을 통해 받은 은혜를 감사한다면서 처음에 받았던 돈보다 몇 배가 많은 돈을 예수원을 위해 쓰도록 주었다.

대천덕 신부는 “믿음으로 받는 것만 아니라 믿음으로 주며” 살면서 예수원 공동체의 경제 원리를 세워 오늘날 교회가 에너지의 상당 부분을 내부 정치와 세상적인 야망에 힘쓰는 것에 도전을 주고 있다.

리더를 세우는 멘토에게서 배우는 영성 대천덕 신부는 평생 동안 수많은 사람들을 멘토링하였지만 여기서는 PRMI(국제교회갱신사역)의 총재로서 Dunamis Course(능력사역 훈련과정)을 세운 브래드 롱(Rev, Brad Long)목사와의 관계에서 나타난 모습을 밝히려고 한다. 대천덕 신부가 48세 때 브래드 롱 목사가 15세 소년이었을 때인 1966년에 만나 2002년까지 그들의 관계는 36년 동안 계속되었다. 대천덕 신부의 아들 벤 토레이(Rev. Ben Torrey)는 브래드 롱보다 한 살 많지만 두 사람은 친구가 되어 쉽게 친구의 부친에게 접근할 수 있었다. 대천덕 신부와 브래드 롱 목사의 부친은 미국 노스 캐로나이나에 소재한 데이비슨대학 동문이며, 모친 또한 같은 주에서 미술 활동을 하는 등 많은 부분을 공유하고 있었다. 이러한 요소들을 통해 하나님은 대천덕 신부가 예수원을 1965년에 시작한 후부터 계속적인 관계를 가지면서 바울과 디모데처럼 멘토십을 나누게 하셨다.

믿음과 행동이 하나 되는 예수님의 제자 1970년 겨울 양식인 쌀이 떨어지고 호박과 김치와 멸치 젖도 떨어졌을 때, 금식하며 가난한 자들이 내일 양식이 없는 처지를 생각해 보라고 가르치면서 어떠한 환경 속에서도 하나님을 신뢰하며 일용할 양식을 구할 것을 기도하고 기적을 맛보게 하였다. 예수원에서 식사 후 차를 마시며 여러 사람들의 대화에 참여케 하는 한편, 많은 시간을 일 대 일로 만나 기도하며 질문에 답해 주고, 개인의 하루 일과표와 저술 및 개인기도 시간을 소개하면서 믿음과 행동의 일치를 강조했다. 이러한 체험은 브래드 롱 목사가 1982년 대만에 평신도 훈련원을 세울 때 재정과 사람과 프로그램도 없는 불가능한 환경에서 하나님께 순종하면서 기적을 베푸실 분을 신뢰케 하였고, 미국 노스 캐로나이나에서 ‘십자가 공동체(The Community of Cross)'를 세우기 위해 2003년 30,000평의 땅을 구입하는 과정과 사역을 펼쳐나가는 일에서 철저한 순종과 기도의 삶을 살도록 하여 열매를 맺게 하였다.

예수님을 함께 닮아 가는 ‘하늘 나그네’ 브래드 롱 목사가 한국에서 고등학교를 마치고 미국 대학 입학을 위해 동아시아를 거쳐가는 과정에서 인도 캘커타 거리에서 죽어 가는 사람들을 보고 절망과 회의에 방황할 때가 있었다. 그러나 한국인들도 꺼려하는 강원도 산골에서 공동체를 세우는 대천덕 신부의 실천적인 모습을 되새기며 벤 토레이의 권면으로 다시 일어나 극적인 회심을 경험하고 그리스도께 헌신하게 되었다.

브래드 롱 목사가 대학 재학 때인 1973년 여름에 예수원의 설립 멤버들이 떠나가고 방문객도 극소수에 불과하고 운영에 어려움이 있을 때가 있었다. 그들은 서로의 문제를 부자간에 나누듯이 기도하며 분노하고 울고 들어 주었다. 대천덕 신부는 브래드 롱에게 밤을 세워가며 한 달 동안 성령에 관해 가르쳐 주면서 헬라어와 히브리어를 참고하면서 성경 속으로 인도해 주었다. 그때 한국인에게 예수원의 비전을 구체적으로 나누는 문제와 성령 세례에 대해 공개적으로 가르치는 문제와 공동체 문제에 대해 깊은 아픔과 개인적인 고통을 함께 나누며 함께 새로운 도약을 하게 되었다.

멘토가 자신의 인간적인 문제와 약점을 인정하며 함께 기도하기란 얼마나 어려운 일인가? 대천덕 신부의 모범 속에서 브래드 롱 목사는 자신의 부족한 부분을 인정하기를 기뻐하며 함께 사역하는 사람들이 자신을 위해 기도해 주기를 기쁘게 요청하며 다른 사람들의 제안과 비판을 수용하게 되었다. 진정한 리더십이 무엇인지 보여 주며 가르치는 삶 대천덕 신부는 의도적으로 브래드 롱 목사를 리더로 키웠다. 예컨대, 기도사역이나 전도 집회가 끝난 후, 브래드 롱 목사를 따로 불러 영적 리더십이나 성령과의 협력에 대해 가르쳐 주었다. 1983년 대만 목회자들이 예수원을 방문한 마지막 날 밤이었다. 20명의 목회자들이 대천덕 신부에게 기도를 받으려고 기다리고 있었다. 다섯 명만 기도해 주고 자신은 급하게 할 일이 있다고 하면서 브래드 롱 목사가 성령께 의지하며 기도할 수 있도록 시간과 자리를 내 주고 자신은 밤을 지새워 제자를 위해 기도하였다. 1984년 대만에서 집회와 1991년 미국 레이크 조지에서도 마찬가지였다. 마지막 날 밤 성찬식에서 “지금이 기회입니다. 누구든지 성령으로 세례를 받고 싶은 사람은 앞으로 나오시오 브래드 롱 목사님과 제가 여러분에게 손을 얹고 기도해 드리겠습니다.”라고 전통에 젖어 있는 대만 장로교 목회자들에게 도전하여 주님께서 역사하시는 자리를 마련해 주었고, 브래드 롱 목사가 삼층천의 경험을 할 수 있도록 1년 동안 계속적으로 중보기도를 하여 응답 받았다.

대천덕 신부는 기도가 하나님과 우리 사이에 ‘평생 지속되는 계약에 의해 이루어진 전적인 상호 책임과 상호의 의지의 코이노니아’로 해석하여 기도하지 않는 것은 하나님의 방해하는 것임을 강조하였다. 브래드 롱 목사는 기도를 통해 하나님께서 자신을 그분의 파트너로 불러 새로운 창조를 위해 협력하기 위해 담대하게 순종하기를 명령받았다. 브래드 롱 목사는 대만에서 하워드 초우라는 사람이 400만 불 상당의 부지를 헌금하겠다는 제의를 사양하고 세계 복음화를 위해 미국 사역의 초청을 받아들여 ‘십자가 공동체’(The Community of Cross)를 세워 포기와 순종과 광야를 걸으며 주님이 주신 ‘기적’을 체험하였다.

대천덕 신부는 브래드 롱 목사에게 진정한 리더십은 힘이나 권위가 아니라 하나님께서 원하시는 것이 무엇인지 알고 그것을 이루기 위해 순종하며 나가는 것임을 일깨워 주었다. 브래드 롱 목사는 리더가 순종할 때 권위와 능력이 나오는데, 이는 리더의 은밀한 기도에 나타난다고 생각하여 끝없이 은밀한 기도를 한다. 초기 스탭들이 떠나며 재정적인 문제와 갑자기 심장이 이상이 있어 응급실에 입원하는 환경 속에서도 중보 기도를 요청하면서 하나님께서 하나님의 일을 이루실 수 있도록 기도로 씨름하는 영적 용사가 되었다.

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Monday, July 19, 2010

Paik, Nam-Jun and Google



Today is Baik, Nam-Jun's birthday. Google is so cool. I like this creative logo design!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

No Finish Line? No.

"There is no finish line."
It's the Nike's first advertisement poster in 1977. I am happy with that there is the end of my course, otherwise I will grow weary and lose heart. By the way, this bucolic scene reminds me of a corner of Ithaca. 

Sunday, April 25, 2010

The Kite Runner


Afghanistan, which has a rich history, is an important geostrategic location, connecting East, South, West and Central Asia. For the reason, the land had been a target of various invaders before the country's independence from the United Kingdom.

The independence seemed to end its foreign affairs, however, it was not. Since the late 1970's Afghanistan has experienced a continuous state of civil war punctuated by foreign occupations, now the country is being rebuilt slowly with support from the international community and dealing with a strong Taliban insurgency.

"The Kite Runner" directed by Marc Forster with Khalid Abdalla, Atossa Leoni, and Shaun Toub is about the country's story. After spending years in California, Amir returns to his homeland in Afghanistan to help his old friend Hassan, whose son is in trouble. The movie shows Afghan history and its scars quietly but also hope, which would not be given up in the Afghan's hearts. I'd like to recommend this movie or novel to all my friends.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

What Do You Follow?

Now I stay with my sister's in London. I started going to a church in Oxford Circus in London, so have to take Brown Bakerloo line at Waterloo station. However, at one Sunday, the Bakerloo line service as well as Jubilee line all were suspended. It takes usually 30-40 minutes to travel between Oxford Circus and my sister's, however, at the day, it took almost 2 hours for me to get home. 

But I did not grumble, just saw the tube map carefully, and found an alternative way. As I knew that I could not change anything but needed to find another way to get the end of journey, the church or home. It took some more time I had not expected, anyways, I could get the destination. Actually during the journey, I could stop by Victoria and Albert Museum and have a good time there, which I had not planned before I left home.

I thought of my life at the day. I said to follow Jesus, but I often make various complaints to Him when something happens unexpectedly. I still want to control all the ways to reach the destination. However, during the journey, He seems to want me to see other issues I have not thought about. His interests seem to be not only in my getting the destination but also in my being changed into his fullness and holiness. But I guess His concept of time is totally different from mine. That is always the very problem. How impatient human beings are.. 

Sunday, March 07, 2010

A Do-Nothing in London

Back in 2006, I was in the UK before I went to the States. I am again in the UK before going back to my hometown. I am thinking how much I have grown up and how much I can live differently in Korea. I can't imagine what is waiting for me, I am very afraid of going back to the country. All of sudden, Korea is regarded as a unfamiliar country to me. I know God has a plan for me rationally, but every step is uneasy. I am eating, reading, and sleeping here at my sister's and doing nothing. I am just so sick.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Love Is A Vivid Verb

What I love is a lifelong companionship. Thanks for these people that I could meet in Boston.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Five Smooth Stones

Last week I got an interesting e-mail from an organization which I have applied to a long time ago, so even I read the e-mail I had no idea. I checked all my documents in "the" job application folder. The e-mail was to ask me to send them additional information about my work experience. They said I was already selected in a certain applicants pool and they were in the proceeding of choosing final interviewees.

I have waited for their reply and today I got an email from the organization. Unfortunately I was not selected as the two final interviewees, however, the HR person let me know thankfully there may be a position which would be well suited for my background and experiences in near future. In fact, it's frustrating experience.

Recently I started to think why I had to change my career path significantly since 2006. Here in the States, I am just a temporary worker. Was it a wrong step to study abroad in my late 20's or was it a just my self-interest or did God give me a chance? I have had a passion to do right things and work for the needy, especially related to North Korea. But should I do help people while making money regardless of what I work for daily? I am confused which life is the best, but I do not want to live a divided life between what I value and what I do daily.

It is true that in the States I feel like I am a mere youngster, like David standing in front of Goliath sneering the boy down. Yes, I am still struggling with English and it makes me shrink sometimes, however in some ways, I am very excited how God would work with me. I am thinking what my "five stones" are and when is the time to sling the stones. If I am standing on the right side, of course, His side, there will be only victories even if the results seem failed. Because every battle belongs to God. Above all, He already won everything including death.

Monday, June 01, 2009

[Article] A Lot Can Be Done, and They Can Be Part of It

Paul Farmer has been described by Pulitzer Prize-winning author Tracy Kidder as "a man who would cure the world." Founder of the Boston-based nonprofit group Partners In Health, Paul Farmer is known worldwide for his pioneering work in global health. Farmer grew up as the second of six children in an unconventional family that moved frequently, living at times in a trailer park, in a bus, and on a boat without running water. Making friends easily and possessing a "photographic memory" for facts, he graduated from high school as valedictorian and went to Duke University on full scholarship.

It was there he began reading about the German physician Rudolf Virchow. Virchow, sometimes called "the father of public health," wrote: "Medicine is a social science, and politics is nothing but medicine on a large scale. The physicians are the natural attorneys of the poor, and the social problems should largely be solved by them." Of his inspiration, Farmer explains, "Virchow had a comprehensive vision: pathology, social medicine, politics, anthropology — my model."

Farmer splits his time between Boston's renowned Brigham and Women's Hospital and a small hospital built by Partners In Health in the tiny village of Cange, Haiti, called Zanmi Lasante (Creole for Partners In Health). Since beginning his medical career in the 1980s, he has devoted his life to improving the health and lives of the world's neediest people — building a health care center in central Haiti; helping prison officials fight epidemic tuberculosis in the former Soviet Union; and working with his colleague Jim Kim to fight multidrug-resistant tuberculosis (MDR TB) in the shantytowns of Lima, Peru. Most recently, Partners In Health has expanded its work into the African nation of Rwanda.

Trained as a medical anthropologist as well a physician, Farmer never stops asking the sometimes uncomfortable question "Why?": Why shouldn't poor people have access to medical care and drugs when they are sick? He has taken this message around the world and said it enough times that he now believes the world is beginning to listen.

"Finally people are starting to notice that a lot can be done, and they can be part of it," says Farmer. "The essence of global health equity is the idea that something so precious as health might be viewed as a right."

In true Robin Hood fashion, Farmer has begged, borrowed, and stolen AIDS drugs from virtually any source he could find, carrying the pills back to Haiti in his suitcase. He goes to the same lengths to secure medical supplies. Much of his time on planes, he says, is spent writing thank-you notes.

His dedication is paying off. When Farmer recently took some donors to visit the project in Haiti, they asked why they hadn't seen any AIDS orphans as they had in Africa. Farmer replied, "It's because we've been taking care of their mothers." Mothers who are HIV-positive are treated with AIDS drugs so they can raise their own children. Farmer and his team pioneered a system that showed that with the help of community health workers called accompagnateurs, rural people could follow even a complex regimen of antiretroviral therapy. The antiretroviral drug program began in 1999, when such efforts were almost unknown. "We didn't do it to be a model program; we did it because people were croaking," says Farmer, with characteristic deadpan outspokenness.

Farmer believes it's his responsibility to be outspoken, and he lectures widely on global health. "I feel it's part of my job to make the problems of the poor compelling," he says. "It's only through a failure of imagination that people turn away. The poor are doing their job — they're shouting as loud as they can. It's we who can't hear them. What the American public thinks is very important to the future of global health. Many people are moved by the idea that there is unnecessary suffering in the world, and we could do a lot to stop it. We have the technologies necessary to stop most of the suffering."

* Paul Farmer and Jim Kim are changing the way the world combats multi-drug resistant tuberculosis. http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/rxforsurvival/series/champions/paul_farmer.html

  • Part I: Poverty and the Rise of MDR TB in Peru (3:49)
  • Part II: Everyone Around Her is at Risk (8:20)
  • Part III: Facing TB Head-On (4:56)
  • Part IV: Reason to Endure (3:40)

Saturday, May 30, 2009

[Article] Sons of Lwala

When residents of a tiny Kenyan village sold their chickens and cattle to buy Milton Ochieng a $900 plane ticket to Dartmouth College, they told him they wanted something in return. Eight years later, he's a Vanderbilt University Medical School graduate preparing for his residency. In his home village of Lwala, a clinic he and younger brother Fred established serves about 100 patients a day.

A documentary about their struggles to raise $150,000 to build the clinic — while attending school full-time and coping with their parents' deaths — will soon be screened at universities across the country.


"It's not common to have a couple of village boys come to the U.S. and advocate for a clinic to be built in their country," said Barak Bruerd, program director of Blood:Water Mission, a Nashville-based nonprofit that has contributed to the clinic. "The fact that they were able to bring so much support to their community is amazing."

Before the clinic, Mr. Ochieng says, sick villagers often had to be carried for miles just to get to a paved road. As a child, he remembers seeing a friend's mother taken away in a wheelbarrow during a difficult labor. Neighbors pushed her for 45 minutes before she died. The image stuck with him. His father, high school chemistry teacher Erastus Ochieng, emphasized the need for health care closer to the community. It was his dream to see a clinic in Lwala, a village of about 1,500 people in southwestern Kenya. It wasn't until a college service trip to Nicaragua, where students worked alongside villagers to build such a facility, that Mr. Ochieng started to think his father's dream could become reality. The elder Mr. Ochieng would not live to see the project completed. He died in 2005 of AIDS, which had killed Mr. Ochieng's mother the year before.

For several years, Mr. Ochieng made plans. Fred Ochieng followed him to Dartmouth and then on to medical school at Vanderbilt. By 2005, Milton Ochieng was ready to build, except he had no money. So he put Fred Ochieng in charge of fundraising. That weekend, Fred Ochieng raised $9,000 at a conference for a Christian ministry group. But it took another two years to raise the $150,000 they needed. They were finally able to open the clinic in April 2007, helped by a $45,000 donation from Blood:Water Mission, which was founded by Christian rockers Jars of Clay to reduce the impact of HIV and AIDS in Africa. In its first year, the clinic saw 20,000 patients at a cost of about $100,000.

"It's important for people to get a sense of how far the U.S. dollar can go," Milton Ochieng says, noting that one woman had emergency surgery for an ectopic pregnancy at a cost of only $250. A similar procedure could cost at least $10,000 in the U.S. The clinic is also getting help from former TV reporter Barry Simmons, who quit his job after interviewing the Ochieng brothers to work full time on a documentary about their struggles to build the clinic. "Sons of Lwala" has so far raised about $230,000.

"It was always the plan to give them a platform to raise money and spread their story," Mr. Simmons said. The volume of patients is growing, Mr. Ochieng says, because of the high standard of care the clinic provides, even without running water or a consistent electrical supply.

The Washington Times Sunday, July 6, 2008

Monday, March 23, 2009

[Article] Story of a 'Solitary Yellow in a White World' is Tale of Hope

A portrait of Yung Wing, Yale's first Asian alumnus, was alongside Law School Dean Harold Koh as he recounted Wing's life story in a recent talk.

When Chinese native Yung Wing came to campus in the mid-1800s, there were "precious few people of color, no women and virtually no non-Christians," said Law School Dean Harold Hongju Koh in a recent talk. "As the only yellow in a white world, Yung Wing was at best a curiosity and at worst a freak," asserted Koh. Yet, Yung Wing's story is ultimately one of "accomplishment," he noted. "In a very real sense, he is the spiritual ancestor of every one of us of Asian heritage who studies or works here at Yale today."

The dean's talk was the first in a year-long series of campus events honoring Yung Wing, who became Yale's first Asian alumnus -- and likely the first Asian to earn a bachelor's degree from any Western institution -- when he graduated from the University 150 years ago. The event brought an overflow crowd to the Graduate School on Sept. 27.


Koh began his talk, titled "Yellow in a White World," by recounting Yung Wing's tale: His early education in China by Christian missionaries, including Yale alumnus the Reverend Samuel Robbins Brown; his journey to the United States and his matriculation at Yale, where he "made a sensation for bearing off repeated prizes for English composition" and first conceived the idea of bringing other Chinese youths to the West for education; and his return to his homeland, where he found that he had beenso changed by his experience in America that his countrymen could no longer understand his Chinese and he could barely understand theirs.
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Yung Wing spent most of his life traveling between the East and the West, never really at home in either place, Koh said, noting that "In America, he felt Asian; in Asia, he felt American." When Yung Wing volunteered to fight for the Union army during the Civil War, for example, he was turned down because "he was not really an American," added the dean.

In China, Yung Wing worked to promote the nation's modernization. In the 1870s, his earlier vision was realized when he convinced the Chinese government to send 120 youths to schools in the West, including Yale, "to promote mutual cultural understanding and to extend the reach of the Chinese empire," Koh said. Although the Chinese Educational Mission was abruptly ended after only nine years, those students went on to become China's "first generation of 20th-century railroad builders, engineers, medical doctors, naval admirals and diplomats," Koh noted.
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While leading the Chinese Educational Mission, Yung Wing received an honorary degree from the Law School, "which makes him, I'm almost sure, the first Asian ever to receive a degree from the school of which I am now dean," said Koh. Yung Wing married an American woman, who returned with him to China, where he later served in the provincial government and became a diplomat. The couple's two sons both went to Yale, and Yung Wing is buried alongside his wife in Hartford, Connecticut. "Perhaps in Yung Wing's story, you've heard echoes of your own life," said Koh to the audience, noting that it was certainly true in his own case.
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Koh's own parents came to the United States from Korea about 100 years after Yung Wing. His mother was a freshman studying sociology, and his father was one of the first Koreans, "if not the first," to earn a law degree in America, he told the audience. "Like Yung Wing, my parents came away from their educational experience determined to promote mutual understanding between the United States and their home country, Korea," he explained. His parents founded the East Rock Institute in New Haven to carry on that cause, and his father served as the Korean ambassador to the United Nations and as a minister at Korea's embassy in Washington, D.C. He was also an educator who taught courses on East Asian law and society at institutions throughout Connecticut, including Yale.

Like Yung Wing, Koh's parents helped hundreds of Korean students come to the United States to study, and they frequently invited those students to dinner in their home. "So many Korean students came to my house that we had a regular chair that was just left available for whoever was coming to dinner that night," Koh said. "When I was [U.S.] assistant secretary of state, I went back to Korea a few years ago. Hundreds of well-meaning Korean government officials came to me and said, 'I ate dinner at your house.'"

There are many truths that can be gleaned from Yung Wing's story, Koh told the audience. Chief among these, he said, is "a lesson about making our own choices, no matter how difficult they might be." 
Koh remembers watching "Perry Mason" as a youngster and asking his father if he should become a lawyer. "My father turned to me and said just two words: 'Study physics,'" he recalled. The dean told the audience he later realized that underlying his father's urging were certain "assumptions about choices" -- notably, that law is for "insiders" and "we are outsiders in this country," whereas physics is a profession that is "truly open to Asians"; and that law is not an exact science, and "we will suffer from its inexactness," while in exact sciences such as physics, "they cannot discriminate against you," explained Koh. Although Koh did study physics for nearly 10 years, he decided that law was his true vocation. He wasn't daunted by the "old boy network" and, he said, "It didn't matter that law was not an exact science because, as it turned out, I wasn't very good at exact sciences."

Over a century after Yung Wing, Koh still found few Asian faces among his classmates at Harvard, and the only Asian names he encountered in the Supreme Court cases he studied "were always litigants and never lawyers," recalled the dean, adding that the history of Asian Americans is "not a story of victors of justice, but victims of injustice."

Today, the world of academia is very different, he said. "If you look over classrooms at Yale and the Yale Law School, you see a huge increase in the number of yellow faces." The population of Yale College is now 13% to 15% Asian American, and about one-tenth of the international students at Yale are of Asian ancestry. "More than that, the world is not nearly as white as it was. The United States has become a strikingly diverse country, and the number of Asians is growing," he said. "What we have now is a different kind of Asian experience."

Another lesson inherent in Yung Wing's story is that of one's obligation to others, asserted Koh, urging audience members "to be a bridge between two cultures, to be a ladder for those who come behind, to be a beacon to those who look for us for leadership because of our unique educational advantages, and most of all, to represent not just those people who are like us in appearance, but those who stand for the same principles." Yung Wing's story also reveals "how one person, even a solitary yellow in a white world, can make a difference," said Koh, pointing to the Yale alumnus' legacy -- the Yale Library's world-renowned East Asian Collection, which was founded with a gift of books from Yung Wing; the Yale-China Association, which promotes East-West cultural understanding and educational exchange; the Yale China Law Center, which is working to modernize that nation's legal system; and the delegation of Chinese university administrators who came to Yale this summer to learn about the operations of U.S. universities, which Koh described as a "modern-day Chinese mission to New Haven."


All this shows that "people can change institutions, institutions can build legacies and legacies can make history," asserted Koh. "And so, my friends, that's Yung Wing's story. It is a story of what it means to be yellow in a white world. It's a story of choices; it's a story of hope; it's a story of obligation; it's a story of accomplishment," said Koh. "But most of all, I think, it's a story of justice -- the justice that Asian Americans seek, and the justice that Asian Americans can create with the help of their friends and their colleagues."

Noting that Martin Luther King Jr. once said "The moral arch of the universe is long, but it bends toward justice," Koh concluded: "If Yung Wing were here, I think he would have to agree."
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